Oh the emotional joys of food. Yesterday I did pretty well...eating moderately and enjoying the taste. We celebrated a birthday in the office which means big cookie--and I did have some. All would be fine. Except for the evening boredom. Debbie and I were watching "Dancing with the Stars" (as we do every Monday night, like an old married couple...) and I decided I needed a snack. And it wasn't even so much as I "needed" a snack...it was I DESERVED a snack. Because it was time. Because the day had been a success in terms of moderately eating food. Because I had gone for a walk. Because, because, because!
So I had an additional 100+ calories in the form of a snack pack of Keebler cookies. (Off the top of my head I can't remember if it was 120 or 150.) Not catastrophic. I get that. But I didn't need ANY.
Truthfully, I was tired, had yet to talk to my sister (a Monday night routine) and needed a shower. I really should have just gotten out of the chair, taken Finn upstairs, and just done what needed to be done.
Well, today is another day. Let's move on and see what happens!
Tuesday, October 11, 2016
Tuesday, September 27, 2016
Like everything else, there are good days and bad days. The good has been getting moving and walking more. I'm trying to focus on staying in the moment (gag me...mindfulness crap...) and enjoy that it is nice weather. I love fall as I don't like extremes in weather to either hot or cold. But it's hard to stay "in the moment" and enjoy the nice without thinking ahead to "sure, but what will I do when it's 20 degrees with a negative wind chill?!"
Same with eating. I let myself get too hungry yesterday afternoon and instead of just taking care of it with something that would fill me up (which I did) I then decided I could have an ice cream cone. I was already full but just wanted it. I "deserved" it because I hadn't overeaten at lunch.
In the words of one of the ASC birth mothers...#struggledom
Same with eating. I let myself get too hungry yesterday afternoon and instead of just taking care of it with something that would fill me up (which I did) I then decided I could have an ice cream cone. I was already full but just wanted it. I "deserved" it because I hadn't overeaten at lunch.
In the words of one of the ASC birth mothers...#struggledom
Tuesday, September 20, 2016
I wonder why daily journaling doesn't ever really work with me? Like so many things, I have great intentions but then don't follow through. Oh well....
A few observations from the past week. Bored eating is my biggest challenge. There was not one particular trigger emotionally, other than not having anything else to do at times (that I really wanted to do, I should say) when I found my little feet wandering into the kitchen. Rick was gone a fair amount of time last weekend and I just kind of wanted to veg out in front of the tv or with a book and have something in my mouth at the same time. Not a good idea. So while that is boredom, it is also habit.
The mindfulness stuff does help. Remembering to enjoy food and focus on it and the hunger cues has helped. That needs to become a habit but I'm not certain how to have that happen.
I did push myself to get out and walk more. That is good, but the usual winter worries are in the back of my mind. Where is the balance of trying to plan ahead yet live in (and take advantage of) the moment?
Things to ponder. Now back to work!
A few observations from the past week. Bored eating is my biggest challenge. There was not one particular trigger emotionally, other than not having anything else to do at times (that I really wanted to do, I should say) when I found my little feet wandering into the kitchen. Rick was gone a fair amount of time last weekend and I just kind of wanted to veg out in front of the tv or with a book and have something in my mouth at the same time. Not a good idea. So while that is boredom, it is also habit.
The mindfulness stuff does help. Remembering to enjoy food and focus on it and the hunger cues has helped. That needs to become a habit but I'm not certain how to have that happen.
I did push myself to get out and walk more. That is good, but the usual winter worries are in the back of my mind. Where is the balance of trying to plan ahead yet live in (and take advantage of) the moment?
Things to ponder. Now back to work!
Thursday, September 15, 2016
Back on the Scale...Again...
Inspired by my long time friend Jodi, I'm joining the blogosphere once again. This is a more personal and private blog. I don't intend to share with many, so if you are invited to follow and read, be kind.
The old joke is that I keep losing my weight and in return it keeps finding me. And once again, this has proven to be the case. I lost around 50 pounds between June of 2013 and August of 2014. Now here it is, two years later, and the clothes are snug and the scale is up there. Not all those pesky lbs have found me, but more than 30 did.
I know what I need to do to lose weight. It's just the motivation I struggle with. Some days I'm all in; other days I just want to sit with a box of cheese its.
Since my physical last week where reality smacked me in the face, I've gone back to journaling my food to keep me accountable. I instigated a walking challenge. So I weighed myself this morning and guess what? Yup. It still works. I lost quite a bit this week.
So the initial euphoria has started. I understand this will carry me through the next few days, but soon there will be a bored evening or a simple "I really want it" moment. Those are the moments I hope to use this lovely blog to get me through.
That being said, the sun is shining and it's not beastly hot. All my work emails are caught up. The ethics presentation is still on the back burner, simmering away, but needs to take shape and form. Ditto the blog for the company web site. So I think I'll leash up the dog, tie on the walking shoes, and go get in a mile or so.
The old joke is that I keep losing my weight and in return it keeps finding me. And once again, this has proven to be the case. I lost around 50 pounds between June of 2013 and August of 2014. Now here it is, two years later, and the clothes are snug and the scale is up there. Not all those pesky lbs have found me, but more than 30 did.
I know what I need to do to lose weight. It's just the motivation I struggle with. Some days I'm all in; other days I just want to sit with a box of cheese its.
Since my physical last week where reality smacked me in the face, I've gone back to journaling my food to keep me accountable. I instigated a walking challenge. So I weighed myself this morning and guess what? Yup. It still works. I lost quite a bit this week.
So the initial euphoria has started. I understand this will carry me through the next few days, but soon there will be a bored evening or a simple "I really want it" moment. Those are the moments I hope to use this lovely blog to get me through.
That being said, the sun is shining and it's not beastly hot. All my work emails are caught up. The ethics presentation is still on the back burner, simmering away, but needs to take shape and form. Ditto the blog for the company web site. So I think I'll leash up the dog, tie on the walking shoes, and go get in a mile or so.
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